Wednesday, 2 March 2011

Disorder's Life #8 - Still traumatised

I am still feeling traumatised by yesterday's events. It feels like there was a violation of my rights, in my own home. It feel like they that were meant to help me & listen to my wishes & concerns had their own agenda. To clear clear clear!

Like I said, if I wanted my home stripped bare I could of easily done that myself, but I didn't, I wanted help, cleaning, organising & sorting through things & I don't feel like I got that yesterday. It makes me think that maybe I should let it go to eviction! Can you believe that! I was so traumatised yesterday that I'm left thinking maybe let it go down the road of eviction, becuase at least then the whole court process would buy me some time to get the place sorted out on my OWN!

Whether I'd of been able to is another story, but I swear if I ever get out of this mess I'm in & am able to help other hoarders, I'm going to listen to them, what they really want & not what others want for them. People like me are not stupid, we can see our homes are in a mess, if we couldn't we would be inviting people round & not keeping it hidden. Many hoarders are perfectionist for goodness sakes, we want our homes to be in it's rightful order. Achieving that is what gets many like myself stuck.

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